If You Really Knew Me!

I have been misjudged and for whatever reason I feel like I need to say something about it. Recently I was accused of being an insincere dater, someone who just "needs attention" and doesn't really date with purpose beyond that. It hurt to hear that because I can't think of anything further from the truth. Yes, I do date a lot, that is no secret; but I don't go with people I don't want to go out with and I certainly would never just go out with someone because I need attention or because I have nothing better to do. I have a very full and rich life, I have hobbies, interests, and friends. I don't need to date, I want to date. I date because I want to find someone, I want a family and companionship, I don't date to stroke my own ego. Dating is a means to an end.

Truth be known...I am scared to death of getting hurt. If you really knew me you'd know that I love easily, too easily for my own good. If you really knew me, you would know that I usually give up on relationships way before I should and it is always done out of fear. If you really knew me you would know that I really don't like to date more than one person at a time, but I do it out of fear. If you really knew me you would know that I just want to find someone I connect with who be man enough to tell me to knock it off and quit dating other people. If you really knew me you would know that I will never settle for less than all that I want. If you really knew me you would know that I have sooo much to give that I feel like I'm going to BURST! If you really knew me you would know that I want to find someone who is ready to be loved completely. If you really knew you would know that I am ready to be loved completely. If you really knew me you would know that I am well aware of myself and my strong personality and that I also know it will take a strong man to handle me. If you really knew me, you would know that I am willing to wait a long time if that's what it means. If you really knew me you would know that I would never intentionally hurt someone. If you really knew me you would know that I am sick of talking about this......